Fresno State University, I don't need you anyway!

Yesterday Ms. Gowen called me into her office. This has been the second time I meet with her. She asked me how everything was going. I lied and said everything was okay, but in reality it wasn't. She asked me how college apps were going and I told her that I have not heard back from anyone yet. She knew that my "incomplete" status on schools was stressing me out so we went to go see Ms. Villagomez about it. She told me to log into my Fresno account. As soon as I looked it said I had been "Denied admission". My heart sunk into my stomach and I burst into tears of how upset I was. Fresno State was not my first choice nor was it a school I really wanted to go to, but the fact of being rejected hurt me. "How am I going to tell my dad?" was the first thought that ran through my head. Ms. Villagomez then immediatly told me that I had done a mistake. "You did not send your scores to all the schools, only to SJSU" she said. I knew I had sent my scores because Ms. Frietas helped me. I showed her my ACT account of when I sent my scores and she said that it was incorrect. I was suppose to send it to each school individually, not just one school to distribute amongst others. I was so mad, but sad at the same time. I was mad because I trusted Ms. Frietas and she let me down. This was not a little mistake. IT WAS HUGE. I felt betrayed and in that moment I knew I could not trust anyone. I said that out loud when I thought I said it in my head. Ms. Villagomez then said, "I haven't let you down and I won't". She made me feel safe again. But I felt hatred towards Ms. Frietas. In the end, we called Fresno State and they somehow received my scores? I don't know how, but they did. That was it. It was real. I was really denied, but not because they did not receive my scores, but because they were too low. I will never forget when Ms. Vilagomez said "It's okay it's an ugly campus and we don't want to be an ugly bulldog anyway!" So I got home and I was not going to tell my dad, he knew something was wrong as soon as he saw me and he said "what's wrong?"....I burst into tears. So much for keeping it together. I knew he did not know what to do because of the look on his face. He just hugged me and said "Don't give up. It's just one school that is not even that great. Know matter what happens, you will go to college no matter where you go. Even if it means community college. It's going to be okay". I will never ever forget those words. He said other very encouraging things. I feel better now.